Thanksgiving, you’re getting to me.
On my somewhat long drive to my first thanksgiving meal, I begin to think about what I would say if I was asked what I was thankful for. I could be cliche in saying being alive and having a decent life, or that in thankful for all the lovely people in my life, but then I started to sincerely think about how much the people in my life have changed me I to the person I am today. So I started wondering, who would I be without all of these people? And I begun I compile the reasons I’m thankful for these people, the ones who are still in my life an the ones who won’t be back, by choice and by force.
I’m thankful for my great-grandma, who’s passing taught me to be strong on the face of hardship, no matter how many people around you are crying. I’m thankful for my father, who’s been working harder than I could have ever imagined to be the best he can be, even though I refuse to take the time to do the same. I’m thankful for my siblings, who remind me to check my temper every day, and oh show me that even the slightest decision I make can have a profound impact on others. I’m thankful for my grandma, who puts up with every mood swing and lie with grace. I’m thankful for jasa, who taught me how not to treat people and who also showed me how to be a good friend even when I feel spiteful. I’m thankful for Katie, who’s actions outlined what I wouldn’t let myself become, no matter how much dysfunction my daily life entails. I’m thankful for Matthew, who really show me for the first time that someone could really love me for who I am, and that my actions have serious consequences. I’m thankful for Natalie for coming up to me while I write this and smiling at me, wanting only attention and love from someone who she doesn’t see nearly enough. I’m thankful for biz, for showing me how a best friend actually acts, and I’m thankful for Collin for letting me experience the necessity of communication. I’m thankful for Jordan for raising my standards, and for making me the confident person I am today by showing me that I deserve better than someone who treats me like crap. And finally, I’m thankful for Kyle, the person who’s constantly showing me how to better myself and how to be a good partner and friend. I’m thankful to Kyle for being the best bestfriend and boyfriend a girl could ask for, and for showing me that I do deserve to be someone’s whole world, and that I’m wonderful no matter what I look like and no matter how messy my hair or makeup is.
Overall, I’ve got a good life. I’ve finally come to a place where the people in my life are the people I want and deserve to have in my life. And I’m thankful for that. To get back to the cliché, I’ll say I’m thankful to be alive, and to have the life I’ve built today, even though clearly, I haven’t had a whole lot of say In the matter (;